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Name: Karen
Birthday: 5/20/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: Going out with friends. (Usually with little or no money. Yay for being a poor college student.) Working at my new job-Play It Again Sports. Swimming, yes, sadly it is still a major part of my life.
Expertise: I'm really good at throwing surprise parties and walking in a straight line. (sometimes)
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  KrazyKid11
Member Since:
6/28/2004
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| so i decided to be adventurous and add a step class to my work out
today. usually i run and lift weight and whatnot, but today i thought
would be super fun to try a step class. BAD IDEA!!!! its a 45 min class
and with only 7 minutes left i fall off the step thing and here a
distinct pop in my foot. so stop, realize that my foot is swelling and
decide to leave the class. i walk back to my dorm (like a block away)
and in that short amount of time, my ankle already has a HUGE ass bump
on it. its bigger than the bump that you already have on your ankle
(your bone thing that sticks out) and i cant walk on it. so im stuck in
my room for the time being. the worst part is that erika is leaving
soon so i REALLY wont be able to do anything. grrrrr.i dont know what
to do!!!!!!!!! i tired walking and i fell down bc i couldnt put any
pressure on my foot without EXTREME pain. oh god. man, i made it 3
months without getting hurt at IU, it was fun while it lasted. damn it.
i have to walk all the way to the bball game against duke tonight too.
shit. shit. shit. heres to lots more drugs tonight and tons of ice.
love you all bunches!!!
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| So I went home this weekend. Lots of things
happened. First, I bought my boyfriend and 2 other friends with me. So
they could meet lots of my hometown friends and vis versa. Everyone got
along really well. *side note* I had a dream on Thursday night that
everyone hated each other. All the PU people hated my IU friends and no
one wanted anything to do with each other. I'm soo glad that didnt
happen.
Friday night I saw Jason and Barbara. We had a
little bonfire at B's house. SOOO FUN!!! I've been wanting a bonfire
since it started being all fall ish outside, so I'm glad I got to have
one this weekend. Then we went to Steak N' Shake really early in the
morning, just like the old days. Then Jason and my friends and I came
back to my house to play Monopoly. Jason beat us all. Yay ego booster
for Jason. haha
Saturday we woke up and went shopping. Got a few new
shirts and sweaters for Winston (boyfriend). SOOOO fun to make boys go
shopping. Man, Casey and I were just picking out all of this clothes
and making him try it on while our friend Rob was just laughing his ass
off. It was a really fun time. Then Casey and I went to church like
good little girls and then met Kristen, Emmalee, and Barbara at
Bruno's. I love how all of my friends (new and old) get together and
make fun of me together. Man, I was feeling the love this weekend. NOT.
haha. just kidding. i love you all. We came back to my hosue to watch a
Christmas movie, which turned into watching the Bone Collector. I don't
know how exactly this happened, but with Em around and our attention
spands get worse, so I think thats how it all got started. lol.
So today was the worst day of my life. My dad has
been having a problem with his stomach lately. Apparently, as a
complication of bypass surgery, he has a hole in his diaphragm and so
all of his organs move around when he lies down, causing tons of pain
for him. So he has surgery for that this Wed. Today I found out that my
dad also has cancer. Not any normal cancer, but a rare and aggressive
form of cancer. Salavary gland cancer. So he has surgery on Thurs. to
get rid of as much of that as the doctors can. So my dad is starting to
battle for his life, and i can do nothing about it. I will never forget
the look on my mom's face when she told me. That has to be the hardest
thing to do. Telling your children that their father is dying. I can't
even imagine sitting in the hospital and hearing that from the doctors.
I can't even imagine being strong enough to battle this. I'm not even
strong enough to talk about it to people. I say one thing and start
crying. It's so selfish that I am upset, but you never want to hear
that your dad has a strong chance of dying in the next few years. I've
never had to deal with loved ones dying. All of my grandparents were
dead, or died when I was really young. So I've been fortunate to avoid
these sorts of situations, until now I guess. I still just can't put
this all together. I don't know is things are going to change.
Apparently the surgery he is having will disfigure his face, so he is
worried that I will be ashamed or embarrassed to have him as a father.
I can't imagine that either.
So I'm really upset and emotional right now. Thank
god for Winston. I seriously didn't know what to do when I found this
out. I couldnt run away, couldnt go to someones house b/c everyone is
gone moving on with their own lives, I just had to keep all of these
feelings trapped inside until I got back tonight. I didn't want to ruin
the trip, so I just sucked it up until I got back to B-town. Delivered
the pumpkin pie and fudge that I made this weekend, and then just
spilled everything to poo. (winston=poo, for those of you who dont know
that story) I'm thankful that he could just sit and listen and try and
understand and help me and not expect anything.
ahhh. it's way past my bedtime. i feel like i need
to do something. run a few miles, punch a wall, scream my lungs out,
curse like no other, hug like everyone i know sixty thousand times
more, and soo many other things that can make me happier than i am now.
night all.
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| So this is going to be a deep entry, kinda.
I've been sick for the past two days and complaining about it b/c I
feel like crap and I had my first midterm today, so i was worried about
how things were going to turn out. No worries, the midterm was fine.
but i am really upset with myself about having such a negative attitude
lately. like friday i had a mental breakdown over nothing. well kinda a
big deal. i finally realized on friday that i dont have friends like i
used to have. i LOVE all of my friends here, but they are nothing like
my friends back in Laf-town. ive been fine with having new friends this
whole time and been embracing meeting new people and trying new things,
but i finally realized that i really just wanted to talk to someone
like my old friends.(so basically i got homesick on friday. yes, me,
the one who was soooo ready to come to college and leave laf-town got
homesick. shocking, i know!) like partying and everything is such a big
deal here, but itd be nice to just be able to stay in one friday night.
and i feel like friends here are more materialistic and judgmental.
which is fine. i love having a diverse group of friends, but it jsut
REALLY got to me on friday. so that was bad attitude part 1. (this mood
seriously lasted for about 30 min, but it still makes me mad that i got
so pissed off)
bad attitude part 2 is the whole
sickness thing. so i got sick from this weekend. its totally my fault
b/c i stayed in someone else's room, there was not enough blanket for 2
people on 1 bed, i got 6 hours of sleep the whole weekend, and i didnt
get my vitamins. so the combination of all of that got me sick. so for
the past two days i have been feeling really crappy. and of course i
complain about it. (fyi. its harder to be sick when your mom cant take
care of you, and you cant miss school b/c you have exams all this week)
but i realized today that i have alot to live for. i mean, ive always
known this, but its nice to remember it every once in awhile. who cares
if i am sick, at least i'm alive. ya know? there are thousands of
people who would love to trade me for my life, so i shouldnt dwell on a
freakin cold.
i also realized that i LOVE walking. i
love walking through campus, alone. i just get to think. thats all i do
when i walk to class. i look at people and think. i love it. i love
walking alone to class. just turn on my ipod to jack johnson or someone
awesome like that and think. its great. all of this stuff i am writing
down came to me when i was walking back from calculus today. i saw this
woman today with the biggest smile on her face. (she was walking alone)
it just inspired me to smile and be happy with what i have. and i
really am thankful for everything. i mean i am on this BEAUTIFUL campus
getting an amazing education and meeting tons of awesome people. who
could ask for more? well recently i have been. i've been wanting a
boyfriend, or material objects for my room, or more new friends, etc.
but none of that matters. seriously. everything happens for a reason,
so why am i in such a hurry to have things happen to me? i'm really
going to try and just sit back and relax and enjoy the ride. life is
amazing and i've totally been taking advantage of it.
so i just read through this entry and it is
probably the deepest xanga i have ever written. go me! no worries guys,
the random outbursts will return soon.
so i am going to be a sexy construction worker
for halloween. i'm going to lowes tomm to buy a hard hat, tool belt,
and bright yellow jacket thing with reflectors that construction
workers wear. isnt that soooo awesome??? i really wanted to be a
janitor, but i couldnt find anything for the outfit.
saturday is the ohio state football game!!!! woohoo.
the stadium is going to be PACKED with red and white, and we are going
to lose, but it will still be a great game and lots of fun.
okay. done with the chatter. nothing really exciting
going on. oh wait!!! today i helped out this family who was totally
lost in the union. I ACTUALLY KNEW WHAT I WAS SAYING!!! i actually knew
where they wanted to go, and how to get there. i am really proud of
myself. which brings me to another point...i love helping people. like
i am sooo excited to start having prospective freshman stay with me. (i
volunteer to have incoming freshman stay with me overnight and they go
to my classes and stuff so they can get a feel for the campus and
college life b4 they go here.) i cant wait. this monday is when my
first girl stays with me. i'll let ya know how that goes, but i am just
soooo excited to be able to help influence someone's decision on where
to go to college. i mean, i get to tell this clueless girl all the
inside details of IU and show her around and everything. i think its
great.
okay, really done this time. woohoo calculus
homework. ahh. just remember to love life everyone. and write me
letters!!!! heart ya!!!
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| I AM SOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!! I THINK I JUST HAD THE BEST
PHONE CALL OF MY ENTIRE LIFE. OMG I CANT EXPLAIN HOW HAPPY I AM RIGHT
NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY BEST FRIEND IS BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM
A FULL BELIEVER IN MIRACLES NOW. OMG I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOO
HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ITS FALL!!! I LOVE FALL!!! MY LIFE IS AMAZING RIGHT NOW!!! I LOVE
COLLEGE!!! I LOVE IU!!! I LOVE MY FRIENDS!!!!! PEOPLE ARE COMING DOWN
TO VISIT THIS WEEKEND!!!!! I LOVE LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
and yes, i have a country song on my currently listening. everyone
hates it here, and i def. miss listening to all the country hick music.
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| So life is getting crazy around here. IU is still amazing, but my
classes have gotten more intense lately. Yeah, I just discovered 2 days
ago that I have 3 exams this coming week. ha. so i really should be
studying for them right now, but I think a last minute cram the night
b4 will be a good experience for me to have. HA.
I got my season tickets for basketball this week. WOOHOO. Me, ROB, and 6 guys. man, its going to be a great time. GO HOOSIERS!
Yeah, I got mail this week. First, KAtie Dale is amazing and sent me a
letter (and a condom) and then my mom sent me a letter (w/ money in
it!!!) and then i got my bball ticket. so this week has been good.
seriously people, getting real mail in college is great. you feel way
loved b/c someone wrote you a letter and then spent $0.37 on you. HA.
so, if you would like to send me a letter i would love you forever.
ok. one thing that has been bothering me is people talking about change
like its a bad thing. i just dont understand it. EVERYONE CHANGES IN
LIFE!!!! its a part of growing up. as much as people want to avoid it
or ignore it, you are not going to be the same person you were a few
years ago. i love being able to change. coming down here has opened my
eyes to alot of different things. meeting people has been amazing, and
now I have alot of diverse friends. i can honestly say that i have
friends on both ends of the spectrum. from younglife leader to frat boy
to library rat to pot head. i've got it all, and its really opened my
eyes and allowed me to except everyone. so i really dont understand why
people are afraid to change. as long as you have a great group of
people as your support system that will love you no matter what, why
does it matter? i think people are just afraid that their old friends
arent going to like who they are becoming. but if old friends are going
to judge you that much, then they werent that good of a friend to begin
with. anyways thats just my thought of the day.
well i'm super tired, and its saturday, so that means that i can sleep
all day and then wake up to go out with friends. yay for no class!!!!
I HEART YOU ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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